the eighteenth - [locked to friends]

[nonesodangerous]

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Well, that's hardly a surprise, is it? What's the use anymore? Is there any use to anything?/Don't think like that, think of all I've accomplished./no think of all i i i've lost/But it wasn't all lost, was it, look at everything I saved./that wasn't m-me that was my my my my friends/But I made those friends./only by lying only in the event of/Shut up, I like them, and they like me, they're friends./well i i i i don't know WHY

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Life has been uneventful lately. I've been making bits and pieces of plans, but...

but they'll fail because i i i fail at everything/Not everything, when did I get like this, I was superior./when i i realized iiii was not more i i i was less/Stop that./IRONY: I AM CONFLICTED WITH MYSELF BUT I STRIVE TO DESTROY CONFLICT/Hahahahaha, how amusing!

But I do not know how to carry them out. I do not even know if they should be carried out. Some of them depend on... unstable factors,

Unstable factors is one name for it, psychopaths is another./They are not psychopaths, such a label can only be applied to/I don't want to go down that path because then that means/I wonder if I could be considered a psychopath. Interesting topic for future consideration, but not now.

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I want to go home.

while others have problems with their very result. Even so, they are only theoretical. After all, even though this computer has been greatly upgraded, it still isn't a match for even a basic 24th century model, never mind... what I am used to.

it still hurts. why does it still hurt. it hurts so much.

...I apologize, my posts are normally longer, and of more interest. But I truly have been doing nothing lately.

Nobody will believe that, that's an appalling lie.

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This lace is chafing like nothing else, I hate it.