the twenty-third [fail!private]

[nonesodangerous]

An apology? What's the point in apologizing for saying what you think? Because that's all it was. It just made him rude and tactless. It didn't turn him into a liar. That's what he really thinks.

...he blames me. And he's right. It's my fault. It's all my fault. He nearly died because of me.

I am unfit. I don't know anything. I'm stupid, and weak, and deluding myself into believing I'm capable of being in charge. Why should anybody listen to me anymore? What authority do I possess?

I'm glad we didn't die. He wouldn't have wanted me with him anyway.