the twenty-third [fail!private]

[nonesodangerous]

An apology? What's the point in apologizing for saying what you think? Because that's all it was. It just made him rude and tactless. It didn't turn him into a liar. That's what he really thinks.

...he blames me. And he's right. It's my fault. It's all my fault. He nearly died because of me.

I am unfit. I don't know anything. I'm stupid, and weak, and deluding myself into believing I'm capable of being in charge. Why should anybody listen to me anymore? What authority do I possess?

I'm glad we didn't die. He wouldn't have wanted me with him anyway.

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[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

Because he'll just do that Neil thing he does where he gives you one of those answers that doesn't mean anything and translates to "don't worry your head about it, Lyle, you're not going to hear about it because I'm doing that thing where I'm trying to be reassuring and big-brotherly about everything."