the twenty-third [fail!private]

[nonesodangerous]

An apology? What's the point in apologizing for saying what you think? Because that's all it was. It just made him rude and tactless. It didn't turn him into a liar. That's what he really thinks.

...he blames me. And he's right. It's my fault. It's all my fault. He nearly died because of me.

I am unfit. I don't know anything. I'm stupid, and weak, and deluding myself into believing I'm capable of being in charge. Why should anybody listen to me anymore? What authority do I possess?

I'm glad we didn't die. He wouldn't have wanted me with him anyway.

Comments

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Why?

[doomedyouth00.livejournal.com]

That virus messes with people's minds, you know that.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

It doesn't mean that's not what he really thinks.

[doomedyouth00.livejournal.com]

You're not the only one he said nasty things to. If he really thought that about all of us, why would he still talk to us? Why would he still spend time with us?

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Because he's pretending.

[doomedyouth00.livejournal.com]

...

He wouldn't waste his time pretending something like that. Especially not now that--

[Locked]

[doomedyouth00.livejournal.com]

Especially not now that we've been away from Celestial Being for so long. There would be nothing stopping him from just breaking all ties with all of us. If he really disliked us that much, he would do that.