the twenty-third [fail!private]

[nonesodangerous]

An apology? What's the point in apologizing for saying what you think? Because that's all it was. It just made him rude and tactless. It didn't turn him into a liar. That's what he really thinks.

...he blames me. And he's right. It's my fault. It's all my fault. He nearly died because of me.

I am unfit. I don't know anything. I'm stupid, and weak, and deluding myself into believing I'm capable of being in charge. Why should anybody listen to me anymore? What authority do I possess?

I'm glad we didn't die. He wouldn't have wanted me with him anyway.

Comments

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

I can't.

[trinities]

Yes you can! What, you're going to give up and roll over just cause your precious Lockon said something he didn't even probably really mean?

[locked] fuck you lj cough up my notifs D:<

[debitumnaturae.livejournal.com]

I'm Death, Tieria. I know everything, more or less.

I know you've had a rough go of it, but if you don't let your friends help you, you'll make it even rougher.

OOC: She just wants to heeeeelp! She's getting him a kitten for his birthday!

[locked]

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Death? I. I don't understand. I don't understand. I. Why?

OOC: I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THIS KITTEN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW i am looking forward to this more than my own birthday.

[oceanicbutterfly]

Tieria-san?

[doomedyouth00.livejournal.com]

You're not the only one he said nasty things to. If he really thought that about all of us, why would he still talk to us? Why would he still spend time with us?

[tyki-tock.livejournal.com]

I didn't know you had a boyfriend.

Is this how you react to every minor crisis?

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

I DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND.

[tyki-tock.livejournal.com]

Well why not?

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

What is it, Karen? I'm tired.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

What do you mean, why not? Are you retarded?

[oceanicbutterfly]

Why are you saying ridiculous things like that?

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

You don't know that.

[tyki-tock.livejournal.com]

Of course I'm not retarded. But it's clear from your reaction that he has such a power over you, that you have some sort of feelings for him. You're attractive - and usually quite intelligent - so unless he's a complete idiot or straight I don't see why you shouldn't be able to net him.

And I'm not certain that his heterosexuality would matter in your case, anyway.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

I. I don't have feelings for him, I don't have feelings for anyone! Just shut up about things you know nothing about! You think you're so smart, but you don't know anything about me! And you certainly don't know anything about him, so don't talk about him like you do!

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Because he's pretending.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Like what?

[oceanicbutterfly]

That you're stupid or weak.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Because it's true.

[trinities]

Jeez, knock it off already! I dunno what's going on in his office but I think he just flipped his desk or something, stop being a jerkass!

[oceanicbutterfly]

You're acting considerably stupider right now than you ever have in the time I've known you. You aren't weak, and you're probably one of the smartest people on the community, which is admittedly not saying much.

[tyki-tock.livejournal.com]

Oh calm down, Tieria. I was just trying to shock you a little. You're right, I don't know anything about either of you.

[tyki-tock.livejournal.com]

I just want to know what's his big problem, anyway? He's freaking out over one little virus. He just needs some perspective.

[doomedyouth00.livejournal.com]

...

He wouldn't waste his time pretending something like that. Especially not now that--

[Locked]

[doomedyouth00.livejournal.com]

Especially not now that we've been away from Celestial Being for so long. There would be nothing stopping him from just breaking all ties with all of us. If he really disliked us that much, he would do that.