the twenty-third [fail!private]

[nonesodangerous]

An apology? What's the point in apologizing for saying what you think? Because that's all it was. It just made him rude and tactless. It didn't turn him into a liar. That's what he really thinks.

...he blames me. And he's right. It's my fault. It's all my fault. He nearly died because of me.

I am unfit. I don't know anything. I'm stupid, and weak, and deluding myself into believing I'm capable of being in charge. Why should anybody listen to me anymore? What authority do I possess?

I'm glad we didn't die. He wouldn't have wanted me with him anyway.

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[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

...what did you say?

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[debitumnaturae.livejournal.com]

Which, the part about Veda or the part about you wallowing?

OOC: Please let me know if I'm getting into godmode territory! She'd never say any of this outside a lock, naturally.

[jagan-glare.livejournal.com]

So you're back to normal, now?

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

Oi, there's no need to be a bitch to me just because you're feeling crappy. And as clueless as I am, maybe I was, but I'm kind of more preoccupied with the bit about my brother almost dying.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Why do you care? There was... an accident. But he didn't die, so forget about it.

[timey_wimey]

Oh, for Rassilon's sake, Tieria Erde, stop wallowing in your self-pity, would you? If you think I'd lie about something like that, you're either just as bad as Donna is, or you're not a very good judge of my character, so which is it?

And as a matter of fact, I wasn't about to give you an ego boost, at least not yet. That virus didn't just make him rude and tactless, if that had been all it had been doing I wouldn't have deadlocked an entire section of the TARDIS with him in it.

[trinities]

You stop whining right now, got it?

[areyoulovers]

Mr. Erde... is this about what happened last Christmas?

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

I'm a terrible judge of character. That's what I'm supposed to be, and I'm useless at it. He meant it. I know he meant it. He thinks I'm stupid and weak. Why else would he shout at me about Michael and Nena? He's always smiling, but you can see it round the edges sometimes. I might be useless, but I'm not that useless.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Don't look. Please, Mileina, I'll talk to you later.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Nobody was meant to see this. I can't even lock a stupid post.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

For any given value of normal.

[trinities]

So get up off your ass and do something about it!

[areyoulovers]

...All right, Mr. Erde. I hope you feel better very soon.

[jagan-glare.livejournal.com]

You're sounding more normal than before. What's got your panties in a bunch this time?

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

What, am I not allowed to care just because I can? And that's my brother we're talking about, so I don't think so. Has this got anything to do with why all his letters suddenly stopped last year?

[timey_wimey]

Oh, give me a break. He shouts at you about Michael and Nena because, to maybe make a teeny-weeny understatement about the situation, he doesn't trust them and probably never will no matter how much evidence there is that they're trustworthy, and he's worried that you're going to get hurt because you apparently do! Now look, I know that the idiot's not perfect and that smile of his might not always be entirely genuine, but that doesn't mean he thinks you're stupid and weak, only that he has a protection complex or something of some sort about everyone, and I think I ought to know about stuff like that, don't you?

And if you call yourself useless one more time, I'm grabbing Donna and coming over there to let her smack some sense into you.

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[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

who aare you ? how. veda.

why do you know


why do you know about Veda@

OOC: will do! but Death is Death, I understand :'D

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

You don't even know where I am.

[areyoulovers]

Don't be sorry, everyone gets sad sometimes!

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

If he's your brother, why don't you ask him?

[timey_wimey]

It's the principle of the thing, Tieria.

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

Because he'll just do that Neil thing he does where he gives you one of those answers that doesn't mean anything and translates to "don't worry your head about it, Lyle, you're not going to hear about it because I'm doing that thing where I'm trying to be reassuring and big-brotherly about everything."

[breakhisknees.livejournal.com]

You're being paranoid.