the twenty-third [fail!private]

[nonesodangerous]

An apology? What's the point in apologizing for saying what you think? Because that's all it was. It just made him rude and tactless. It didn't turn him into a liar. That's what he really thinks.

...he blames me. And he's right. It's my fault. It's all my fault. He nearly died because of me.

I am unfit. I don't know anything. I'm stupid, and weak, and deluding myself into believing I'm capable of being in charge. Why should anybody listen to me anymore? What authority do I possess?

I'm glad we didn't die. He wouldn't have wanted me with him anyway.

Comments

anon, ip untraceable, icons invisible

[breakhisknees.livejournal.com]

You of all people should know how the community works.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Typical.

anon, ip untraceable, icons invisible forever

[breakhisknees.livejournal.com]

You're honestly going to blame the guy for something that he had no control over.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

I'm not blaming anyone for anything. He was telling the truth. For once.

[breakhisknees.livejournal.com]

Nah, when it comes to these things, he's not that kind of guy.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

And what would you know?!

[breakhisknees.livejournal.com]

I know that you're not stupid or weak and you are capable of being in charge, but damn, you need to calm down.

If he had the guts to apologize on the community for stuff he had no control over, then he really didn't mean it.

...... :'D?

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

Wait, what?

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

And where did he say that he didn't mean it? Where did he say it wasn't true?! All he said was that he was sorry for saying it! I'd be sorry too, if a façade like that slipped!

[timey_wimey]

Tieria.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Come to tell me I've got it all wrong? What the hell would you know?

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Save your "brilliant" trash for someone else, Doctor. I'm sick of being lied to.

[breakhisknees.livejournal.com]

Even when Lockon is his maddest, do you really see him acting like that?

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

No, I don't. But that virus let him say what he really believes.

[breakhisknees.livejournal.com]

What was that girl's name that started acting completely the opposite of how she usually acted ... ? Nena, right? I'm kind of thinking that he got hit with the same virus.

[doomedyouth00.livejournal.com]

I don't think he thinks that. Not really.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

And so do I. But in this instance, all it stripped of him was the ability to bite his tongue.

[breakhisknees.livejournal.com]

I think you're just being cynical for the sake of being cynical.

[locked]

[debitumnaturae.livejournal.com]

You'll give him credit for honesty when he's hurting you, but not when he's sorry for it?

You can beat yourself up without dragging people you love into it, you know.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

Why?

[doomedyouth00.livejournal.com]

That virus messes with people's minds, you know that.

[locked]

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

I believe he's sorry. I just don't believe that he wasn't telling the truth when he said that he blames me. He should blame me. It's my fault. Everything goes wrong, and it's always my fault.

...I don't love anyone.

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

It doesn't mean that's not what he really thinks.

[locked]

[debitumnaturae.livejournal.com]

Okay, fine. You're the machine you were created to be. Moving along.

So it's your fault. Sure. Are you planning to wallow in guilt, or are you going to do better next time?

[nonesodangerous.livejournal.com]

I think I'm seeing the truth.